A Sad Day, a New Beginning


At around 10:10am today (July 24th), my mom, Madeline Keifer, left this world to begin a new life. The picture to the left was taken just a couple weeks ago, not long after she entered the hospital.

Mom lost a battle with colon cancer. She had a tumor removed from her colon in May, and 12 weeks later it was discovered that the cancer had metastasized. The growth was extremely aggressive, doubling every two weeks.

She went back into the hospital on June 27th to get her pain under control, and it was then that the doctors told us the bad news.

I am one of six kids that my mother brought into the world. Anybody that can have six kids, and give us the wonderful ‘leave it to Beaver meets The Brady Bunch’ childhoods that we had is certainly a hero to me.

Mom was a registered nurse for over 45 years where she dedicated a good part of her life helping others. She took time off from her career to care for us, and didn’t go back into nursing until my sister (the youngest) was in high school.

She had a wonderful sense of humor, and was an avid Yankees fan. She loved all sports, really, but baseball was her favorite, and she was faithful to the NY Yankees for as long as I can remember.

The last Yankees game that she was able to follow was the game against the Rays, where the Yankees pummeled them 9 to 5 back on the 18th of July.

A couple weeks before, she asked my sister “who’s that man standing in the corner?”. Misty replied, “there’s no one there.” “Yes there is!, who is he?” my mom retorted. “Mom,” said Misty, “there’s no one there”. The room was empty and it was quiet. Misty was the only one in there with her.

About an hour later, mom woke up suddenly and said “She just told me they won… the Yankees just won the game” Misty, a bit taken aback asked “what? who told you?”. Mom said “That lady, she told me that the Yankees just now won the game”. Except for Misty, the room was empty, and it was quiet. Out of curiosity, she switched on the TV and clicked over to ESPN. At the bottom of the screen, a marquee was scrolling which read that the Yankees game just finished, and that they had won 1-0!

Was it just a coincidental hallucination brought on by the pain medicine? Perhaps, but it was quite apparent to me that there were many loved ones on the other side watching over mom & waiting to welcome her when the time came.

After that day, she never saw (or at least never told us) any other people who where not physically there. Her mind was very clear, & she was very aware right up until the end. I’m thankful for that. Even though she was too weak to speak these past few days, she still could get out a phrase here and there. The last thing I told her was “I love you mom”. She replied back several times “I love you Jack”. I embraced her as she fell back to sleep. On some level, I knew that it would be the last time that we would talk to each other & it was comforting to know that our last words to each other were “I love you”.

My sister was a Godsend. She is a school teacher, and with summer break, she practically lived at the hospital. In these final weeks, my mom was afraid to be left alone, and Misty spent many a night with her as well. Being a female, she can help take care of her in ways that only a female can.

My mom was worthy of the title in every sense of the word. She would have given up her last dollar for any of us if need be. She was always there for us, and her love was unconditional. I’m going to miss her smile, her gentle soothing voice, her wonderful sense of humor, and a host of other things that I could spend days listing.

The world seems a darker place without her. Mom lit up the lives of all that were privileged enough to know her. That light has now moved on, but the world is still a little better place because she was in it.

The last few months have been a real hell, especially for her. Back in June, she told me that maybe this was all just a nightmare, and that she would wake up from all of this.

The nightmare is now over mom, and I know that you have awakened to a new life, to be together again with all your loved ones on the other side, free from that painful body which has imprisoned you these past few months.

My mom & dad are now together once again, and I’m sure that amongst all this sadness, there is a happy reunion between them. Here in the physical realm, she is gone forever, but someday we will see each other again. Just knowing that will make even my last day, just a little brighter.

-to be continued…

I will always love you Mom.

21 thoughts on “A Sad Day, a New Beginning”

  1. Yeah this is the time. My dad is nearing his day. His PSA went up to 5.0 (prostate specific antigen). 8 or 9 is when they operate, but their attitude or at least the vibe seems to be that they may not even try.
    My mother has an aneurysm in her leg, and has an attitude that it is not to be concerned about. One of her doctors disagrees, and so do I. I think her entire attitude has to do with how long she will live beyond my dad. I understand and yet am still outraged at her fatalistic behavior.
    This is a bad part of life in some ways, a fear of loneliness of the type of being left behind by those whose blood you share. And now here I am with health problems of my own plaguing, distracting and afflicting my own success at life itself. And exiting are the pillars I once took as solid, but are as vaporous as the air that carries all unto the wind.

    1. Hi John,

      Your mother should be very concerned about it. If she won’t go, you should hog-tie her and drag her down to have it taken care of, if that’s what it takes.

      Once she’s gone, it’s forever.


  2. Hi, Jack

    This was beautiful story about your mother. When I read the story, I tried my best to hold back the tears. I am so glad you had a wonderful child life and I like your mother love the yankees.

    1. Hi Ray, thanks for the wonderful comment.

      I have a feeling that she’ll be spending a lot of time hanging around Yankee stadium. πŸ™‚


  3. My deepest condolences, Jack. You’re mother was obviously an extraordinary person who positively touched and enlightened the lives of many.

    Best personal regards, George

    1. Thanks George, I couldn’t have said it better. She was a great woman & a wonderful mom.


  4. Hi Jack,
    I just got back from Minnesota and was hoping your new version of the Amazing Cloaker would be out (the one that’s also compatible with Macs). I can see you’ve had a lot on your plate lately . . . I’m so sorry to hear about your mother, she seems like a wonderful lady. I lost my mother in 2008 and my mother-in-law in 2004, and like your mother, they both saw loved ones and others from beyond the veil of this life just before it was their time to leave and join them.

    Although it leaves us sad to be without their physical presence, it’s a great comfort to know that they are in good hands and with other loved ones who have passed on. May God’s comforting love sustain you during this time.

    P.S. If I go ahead and just get the last version of the Amazing Cloaker, will I be able to upgrade later?

    Thanks, and God bless!

    1. Hi Donna,

      Sorry to hear about your losses as well. It is interesting how the veil gets thinner for those closest to crossing it.

      You’re also correct that this whole ordeal has seriously delayed the new releases of my software.

      Now it’s looking August-ish for both Xingla & AmazingCloaker.

      To answer your question Donna, yes, current owners of the software will have automatic updates to the new version.

      As a customer, you also have lifetime access to the download area, where you can download the most recent version anytime. This is especially convenient if your hard drive crashes and you need a new copy.

      You would simply log into your members area to get it. As far as updates, they are automatic & you are notified of any new updates when you launch AmazingCloaker or Xingla Pro. πŸ™‚


  5. My deepest condolences, Jack, i’m sorry to hear about your mother, she was a wonderful woman. I’m sure she is beginning a new life and she will always stay with you, in your heart.

  6. Aaron,

    Nice to hear from you & thanks for the sympathies.

    I couldn’t have asked for a better mom. She was always supportive of everything I did. Whenever I stumbled, she was always willing to help me up & dust me off, no matter how moronic those mistakes might have been .

    She loved life, and loved unconditionally. πŸ™‚


  7. I’m so sorry, Jack. I trust that after your wounds have begun to heal, thoughts of your mom will bring a smile to your face and warmth to your heart.


    1. Thanks Robert,

      It’s feels that it will never heal, but I know it will to some extent. The rest I must accept to live with until one day it’s my time to see her again.

      The smiles to my face & warmth in my heart brought on by her memories is her permanent gift to me, which in turn honor her as well.


  8. This is such a lovely post and I’m sure your mom appreciates how warmly and heartfull you spoke of her. She does sound like an incredible woman and it’s great that, for people who didn’t know her, she can be remembered in this positive way. That was spooky about the scores though… Although it has been hypothesised that some drugs can kick start some very strange brain activities. Lovely post! RIP Madeline Keifer.

    1. Thanks Zoe for the nice reply. She was an incredible woman, as anyone who knew her can certainly agree. πŸ™‚

      I thought the scores thing was pretty fascinating too. One of the nurses (Rena) told me that often times she has seen that some drugs will increase their awareness of the spiritual realm when they are approaching their final days.

      For me it was a little extra validation that there were many loving friends & relatives waiting for her homecoming.


  9. That was beautiful Jack and so perfect. You’re mom was a beautiful soul and so gentle. I think of you all often and I’m sorry I didn’t know about your mom’s passing until just a few days ago. Bless you all and mom and dad can now infectiously laugh together as they always did.

    1. Thanks Sue, and it’s great to hear from you again. You’re right on about them once again laughing together.

      Before her passing, I was having many recurring dreams of them together. It seems that my dad was anticipating her arrival.

      If there ever were more perfect soul mates, I would have to say that it was them for sure. πŸ™‚


  10. My heart goes out to you and your family. I was very lucky to have known her for a short time . I rember the first time I met her and could not beleive how easy she was to talk to. Instantly she felt like my mom too. and for time she was. Im so sad she is not here anymore and that I wont ever have the chance to hear her voice or see her smile. Im so glad you were there for her. She loved you so much. Kiwi passed away in 2005 peacefully. So Im sure he was there to greet your mom too.

  11. Hi Terry,

    Thanks for the kind words. One of my mom’s many gifts was the ability to relate to people and make them feel comfortable around her, even when meeting them for the first time. I will always miss her.

    Kiwi did pretty good, living to 2005. πŸ™‚ Still sad to hear though, but I’m glad that he went peacefully.

    I hope all is well in your life, and that the years have been good to you. Thanks again for your heartfelt condolences Terry. πŸ™‚


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